Some days are harder than others. For no reason at all. Today is one of those days. I feel crushed by my own desires. Contentment is what I struggle with. Some days more than others.
I wish I was prettier.
I wish my skin was clearer.
I wish I was married.
I wish I had a job that was more stable.
I wish my home life wasn’t so stressful.
But then I hear a still small voice whisper, “You are exactly where I need you to be. Stop wishing your life away.”
Sometimes I so easily forget how far I’ve come and how much I DO have.
I have a loving mother.
I have a job that I love.
I have the best boyfriend I could ever ask for.
I have awesome friends that I can have fun with.
I have Jesus.
Isn’t that the most important of all? He is all I need. How easily I forget that sometimes. He is my fulfillment. I do not need any of those things I wish I had. I need to rest in His love.
“For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.” – Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
This is what He’s been trying to tell me. Be content with what you have now, there’s a season for everything and you are exactly where He needs you to be.
Enjoy where you are.